March 12, 2013

Into Ruins

I have every reason to be drop-dead devastated right now. If I were a full-time geek or a motor vehicle lover, I would have killed myself already. Either way, I am horrified by the unfortunate events that have been crossing my way lately.

A week back, my car started dripping off gasoline while running so I wasn't able to use it until now unless our mechanic shows up (which is not happening). A few days ago, I dropped one of my external hard drives making it hardly usable anymore, thank God it was my smallest one which was an 80GB Philips. This morning, my motorbike decided that it will no longer start. It probably needs to be tuned up and oil changed. I'm still thinking of a fucking way how to bring that shit all the way to the motor shop. Good Lord. I don't have any wheels as of the moment.

To make things worse, earlier when I came home, I found out that the installed hard drive of my computer wasn't being read. Imagine my stress and distraught. I was completely shattered because I have so many important files in there. I reformatted my computer just to see if it was the problem but unfortunately, it wasn't. I then prayed for a glorifying moment when the hard drive suddenly gets read so I have the chance to salvage the files in that dying 500GB.

I have a 1TB external hard drive but the transfer rate is kind of slow so I decided to use my cousin's 1TB instead which had a fairly faster transfer rate. When I went to her house to borrow it, I found out she used a different plug to power it and when I came back home, the drive was as good as crap. It wasn't working anymore. Not even a small hint of life. Lastly, my mouse's scroll key is not working anymore.

So there, I think I'll cry my ass off when I sleep tonight.

February 11, 2013

I Owe You One... World

It's really hard when you do something unforgivably callous to somebody yet they still forgive you anyway. After that moment, the guilt will haunt you for the rest of your life. I mean, sure it'll be negated by time but the point is, it's there and it will never go away. It's like a crumpled paper that no matter how much flat pressure you put to it, it'll never go back to its original state.

Once you wrong somebody to an infinite level, but eventually just let you off easy, being around them will never be the same. It's like your behavior towards them or simply how you treat them will completely change into a safe mode kind of way. That's because you're scared you might do something wrong to them again.

Worse, even if they're the ones to do something bad to you, so long as it never goes to the extent of leveling to what you have done to them, you have no choice but to let it just slip. You give an entire world of not giving fucks to anything offensive that they may do to you. Because once that happens, you'd think they'd most probably slather all over your sorry ass what you did to them. The thing is, you will always feel mortified around them.

So, always be careful in things that you do. Never do anything that you will eventually regret for the rest of your sorry life.

February 1, 2013

Piam

I first met Pemari Kresta Kempis Mengote in college. During the freshmen orientation. I didn't mind her nor anyone in the class because I was busy being worried for myself and what the prestigious university was gonna do to me. Though I knew I was gonna be friends with pretty much everyone eventually, I never really thought I'd be closer to her.

I think the reason we got along and a few other members of our mini club was because we seemed normal. We were the conventional type in the class. We had our unique ways and characteristics but we were the type to say to others in our minds, "You're awkwardly weird but I'm not gonna tell you that so that you won't think I'm mean." And instead give away a reluctantly fake sneer of slight laughter.

I know there were a lot of times that we thought the same about things. If it's negative, I would always be the one to say it (See, I'm the obnoxious one, but people tend to think it's funny because they think I'm joking) but I know she has it in mind as well, she's just not mean enough to say it. Instead, she'd nudge me and I'll be like, "Whaat? It's true!"

I already forgot most of our adventures in the early years of our college education probably because we were still making an effort to be good students in the middle of our ordeal undertakings. In other words, we were boring. Most of the things that I can recall are from our senior year (mostly non-academic and fun experiences) because that's how my brain cells roll.


Pem, Jay-ar (I'm not sure if you've heard of him) and I consider ourselves to be siblings (in a parallel universe). Whenever we had the extra time, we'd always have a movie night at my place. We'd just spend the night away with a movie or two with snacks if we had money, and the rest bickering, eventually snoring. The three of us went out on movie dates and whatnooot, fighting over animé, food trip, books, and bar-hopping but just having senseless conversations in them. Looking back, we could be the three stooges, the three musketeers, or the three blind mice.

Pem and I were partners in our thesis during senior year. At one point, I was worried about it not getting done because I knew I was a slacker and Pem had those times too, only not as intense as mine. But then I thought, sure we don't do things like the nerds but we get work done if we had to. We let ourselves near the brink just for the thrill of it but we never let ourselves fall. That's what you do so in the future, you have something interesting to tell people.

Pem is the natural smart girl. She's not nerdy smart nor the effort smart. She just does a few flicks of her hair, strike what she knows and that's about how she carries herself. We basically are the same in terms of knowing about a lot of things not written in the book. We pretty much have the same wavelength in terms of digs. Another reason we can talk just about any random thing.

Pem is dainty. Her manners are orthodox. You can tell she was raised well. She's rational, honest, simple, thoughtful, witty. She loves what she loves and she doesn't let other people weigh her down on the grounds of her own beliefs. She doesn't think the efforts she gives to something would become futile.

Pem is sincere, friendly, pleasant, but sarcastic sometimes. She's not envious, prejudiced, nor judgmental. She's not overly intrusive nor meddlesome. She sees the good in people, later the bad but like I said, she doesn't judge. She's also creative, dynamic, and happy. If she is, she won't let you stop her relentless laughter resembling someone having an asthma attack and you'll be all like, astonished and have you confounded as to whether you should rush her to the mental hospital or just laugh with her. Also, she cavorts a lot when she's very excited and kinikilig.

We fought at times, but that's just part of friendship. I may have regretted some of them but I certainly learned from what it brought. We are balanced because we don't just share the good times. We also shared thesis. If you know what I mean.

She's a friend, a colleague, a fan, and a sister to me. I am thankful that I met her. I will always be. Happy birthday. :*


PS. Why did Pem cross the road?

- because on the other side her family is waiting
- because on the other side there is a concert of Coldplay, Dashboard Confessional, Owl City, Parokya ni Edgar, Joshua Radin
- because on the other side is a huge animé and manga store featuring One Piece
- because on the other side Jay-ar and I are watching How I Met Your Mother
- because on the other side AJ Rafael is giving away autographs and photo ops
- because the thief that stole her camera did
- because on the other side is a sale of paperback novels
- because on the other side is Jed Dycoco playing with his band?
- because on the other side is a huge comfy bed
- because on the other side are a bunch of ignorant people waiting for her sarcasm
- because on the other side is a movie marathon
- because on the other side is a food fare
- because on the other side her boyfriend is holding a bouquet and a box of chocolates

January 28, 2013

The Lonely Island: YOLO

While I was watching the latest episode of Saturday Night Live last night hosted by Adam Levine, I got to see another super cool digital short by The Lonely Island featuring Adam himself and Kendrick Lamar. I have been a huge fan of Andy Samberg since I forgot when that's why I was a little bit devastated when I found out that he was leaving SNL and will no longer be a part of its 38th season after 7 years.

I badly missed Andy in SNL that I just had to watch his movies like That's My Boy and Celeste and Jesse Forever, and seeing him back with the other two The Lonely Island members in this episode was just euphoric.


I didn't want to miss this episode because, come on, it's Levine. And for the nth time, he was again wearing his 600-dollar plain white shirt that had holes resembling famished rat doings and is extremely shabby - something that you give to the homeless. That shirt is all I literally see him wear even in his rehearsal sessions in The Voice.

This was another good episode, but with Adam in it, I expected more fun. I wasn't quite satisfied, frankly speaking. But what I really liked was the digital short with The Lonely Island. It becomes a lot like legit with Adam doing the chorus. It's a YOLO mockery and I loved it. Check it out.


January 21, 2013

American Idol Season 12 Kick Off

First off, I am not a huge fan of American Idol since the beginning. I just decided to follow this season just because I felt like watching a singing competition these days. Plus, I am very curious about how dear old Nicki Minaj behaves around certain kinds of people. Although, I am neutral about her - I don't love nor hate her (I am impressed with her bizarre style though). But I'm guessing since she's a little bit crazy, I'm gonna like her eventually.


For the judges, mehhh~ As implied, I am really fond of Nicki. She's got the attitude. On the other hand, I have never really liked Mariah since I have known music (I know she's one of the greatest singer of all time but that's just how I feel about her). Her and Nicki always bicker. I don't give a huge damn about Randy Jackson. Last but definitely not least, I have high respects for Keith Urban (he's who I like in the panel, by default).


AI 12 already aired two episodes within the past week - New York and Chicago auditions. There were good and bad singing, as usual but nothing really made me say "WTF, this person has stellar vocal abilities." You know what I'm saying? Also, it kinda occurred to me that some auditionees were horribly appalling, those that I think just got lost and decided to audition but there's no way in hell they can sing. Sometimes, I even think that they may just be "actors" who were paid just to make the show a little bit more amusing. I mean, they're really really bad. Even people I know who can't and never sing don't sound as bad. But, since the world is a weird place and it is filled with uniquely weird people, fine.

The main reason I decided on blogging about the show is because I was touched by the story of the last contestant in the Chicago auditions. Lazaro Arbos was born in Cuba and his family moved to Florida when he was 10. Lazaro has a speech problem. He started stuttering at the age of 6. He went through lots of speech therapies but not one helped. His case didn't improve, instead it just got worse. Despite this, he still auditioned and he really did a good job. When he sings, he doesn't stutter.


He is a true inspiration for me.

January 14, 2013

Angels of Sex

I was browsing through movies I wanted to watch for my spare time when I bumped into one called The Sex of the Angels. It got my attention primarily because of the movie poster. In an instant after seeing the poster, I knew it was interesting. I smelled something out of the ordinary so I decided to watch it (being the cinephile that I am).

At first I thought it was an Israeli movie when I jumped into one scene just to check it out. I have no clue as to why I judged that way but I was obviously mistaken when I heard them speak. Spanish.

I was taken aback by how beautiful the actors were. Their VGL level was the type that would make you want to actually marry a Spanish human being. Plus, and one of the most important, their acting was really good.

Judging by the title itself, you might think that the movie is all sex. It's not. Well, kinda, but mostly not. Even if you see a number of love scenes, you won't think that it's a dirty movie just because the characters don't exemplify the stereotypical nymphomaniacs being usually labeled by the public. They don't have that aura in the film (maybe also because of how properly attractive they are) and as you watch the film, you'll realize that they're not the kind of people who think about sex all the time.


The storyline is quite unconventional (some would think it's WTF) but if you think about it, it may actually reflect today's society (but I guess not much in the Philippines, though). It's very similar to the Korean movie I watched a few years ago Hello My Love but much more intense (considering how conservative Asians are). It's kind of a bisexual-three-way relationship. There's this heterosexual couple who are very much in love then here comes a guy who messes it up by getting involved with both of them. The epitome of the so called love triangle.

The film ended how I wanted it to. I'm tired of tragic endings. This one has none of that. Well, almost.. but it didn't happen. Just enough to tingle into your senses. They actually decided on being a stable three-way relationship because the couple couldn't stand being apart from the guy. Which is cool. Now, now. It's the 21st century but if you disagree with that, it's fine too. But yes, it's way too complicated and I think it wouldn't work out for the three of them in the long run.


January 11, 2013

iTunes 11 (Slight) Redemption

With the initial release of the very first version of iTunes 11, I have posted some time ago about my rage on some of its shortcomings. With the release of version 11.0.1.12, the slightly improved one, it got kinda better.

Owl City's Midsummer Station

What I really like about 11 is it's ability to adapt the colors of the album artwork and make it the color theme of the whole playlist. Other than that, nothing. Basically, I only liked the interface, which is probably one of the unimportant things to consider.

I was already able to search through my devices unlike the previous version. But the top bar which displays the artists, albums, and genres are still not narrowed down to what you search for, making it a hassle sometimes. So I think that's what Apple should acknowledge next. I hope.


Cliché Relations Officer

I admit that I am a person with a considerable amount of pride. I do not, almost at all times, let myself become needy nor desperate over anything not crucially important. My pride is very important to me and I believe that it helps me come up with sound decisions and actions that contribute to my betterment.

Most of the time, I try to figure out how to do things myself instead of making other people show me how it's done. It's mostly because of my pride, but not entirely, needless to say. That also only works with things that aren't so technical. Otherwise, I would already need some expert advice.

In terms of relationships, pride is equally important for me. If you are planning on entering a serious, faithful and loyal relationship, pride in oneself as well as trust should be prerequisite. Without those two traits, love and affection between both sides will definitely break apart in one way or another. I myself have been in a considerable amount of flings, two more or less serious relationships and I admit that I was the jerk that's why I pretty much learned from my deeds. I don't regret them, though.

You two love each other so much. That's great. If that continues until you decide to get married, create a family, occasionally quarrel about something, and die together, better. If that's not the case, then learn from this important pointer in most (young) relationships:

♥ In the event that anytime in your relationship your partner cheats on you, or simply just tells you they don't love you no more, then let them go (if it was the latter situation, dump them). The phrase "fighting for love" is so much bullcrap if you're gonna do it yourself. Both of you should. Then that would be an exception. Never go on pathetic mode running towards them asking back desperately for their affection. That's pretty much pointless. You need to preserve your dignity and pride.

January 1, 2013

Resolutions are Bullsh*t

R.I.P 2012, Happy Birthday 2013

Let me guess, these are probably the entries people will put in their New Year's resolutions (which won't actually be done):

- lose weight
- stop eating (for Christ's sake)
- not be lazy
- lose weight
- lose weight
- lose weight

Today is the start of another year, obviously. However, it doesn't necessarily mean it's the only time we should make changes in our lives. If change is necessary regardless of the time of the year, do it. My point is, New Year's resolutions are bullcrap. Besides, they don't get committed 90 percent of the time, anyway. I bet people only say they have resolutions just for the sake of saying they have it. Grow up, please. Nobody gives a fuck anymore. If you wanna do it, do it. If not, we won't care either way.

All I know is, I love watching fireworks displays. Especially epic ones. Like that one in Diseyland where I almost pissed my pants. Oh wait, that wasn't for New Year.

Meh.

PS. Happy Birthday to all New Year babies whose birthdays have once again been completely ignored. Don't feel bad. It's a happy day.